Ever wish you remove a moment in time?
      I know I mentioned before that my (very soon) husband-to-be and my best-friend dated before.  He has even mentioned it.  I have been having a hard time, because of something she said.  We were talking about our (current) relationships with our husbands, and she made a remark about her husband having problems with being intimate with her at (very) certain times.  I told her that I was sorry for her.  (I meant this sincerely and innocently...not to be mean in anyway.  She was hurt by the problem they were having.  I was sorry for her hurting.)  She made the remark of, "Oh, that is right.  Kelly never had a problem with that."  That is the one thing she could have said to cut me very deeply.  Now I can not get it out of my head that they were intimate.  I knew they dated, but I could forget (or ignore) that they ever DID anything.  Now when that type of (very certain) situation comes around I can't be close to him.  I want to be.  In my heart he is already my husband.  In two months he will be my legal husband.  He will be the only husband I will have ever had.  I have never been married before.  I love him like I have never loved anyone else.  I know that we are meant to be husband and wife.  I just don't want to know want he has ever done with my best-friend, in the past.  He has been very good at keeping the past in the past, even when I have asked.  She just openly tells me, when I don't want to know.  She is my matron-of-honor in our wedding.  I am having a hard time talking to her anymore, afraid she will say something else that will hurt like that.  I don't tell her anything personal, afraid of her response.  I am very much in love with Kelly.  I would not ever do anything to hurt him.  Julie is my best-friend of many years.  I would not purposely hurt her or anyone.  I am just having such a hard time with this.  What do I do?  I hate putting my personal life out in the open like this.  I just don't know who to talk to.  They are the main ones I talk to.  Well I do talk to Ronni about a lot of things too.  Ronni and I have been becoming a lot closer than we ever have before.  She is a great friend.  I am scared if this keeps getting to me that it will really end up affecting our marriage.  I am not going to leave him because of anything someone says, especially something from the past.  However, it has already effected our love life.  The power of words and imagination.  Did I ever mention that I see everything said, read, and heard?  Well, everything to me, that is.  I don't know what to do.  HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
      
    
    




